Everything under the sun...

You're doing better all the prayers are helping. i want to come see you but i'm scared, last time you didn't know who i was. you had just come out of surgery though, i like to believe you could never actually forget me on your own. i'm so glad you're getting better, all i want, all i've always wanted, was for you to be okay, happy, healthy, and in good spirits wherever you are. i know we ended badly, and i know we haven't been together in a long time. and i know we've had bad times, but we've also had some pretty damn good times too. i also know, that no matter how hard i've tried, and no matter how many days, weeks, months, years have passed i still care for you as much as i did that first day we went out. i always felt a connection to you, it was always so easy to talk to you, and we used to just sit and converse just you and me, for hours, and no one else in the world understood me, understands me the way you do, did. so it goes with out saying, whenever you hurt, i hurt, and i just want you not to hurt anymore. i hope that when you're better we can be friends again, but even if that doesn't work out, ill just be glad the pain is over. i don't like for anyone to be in pain, mental or physical, and i know you've always hurt but i think this is a sign for you. a new beginning, a second chance to start over. you have always had so much potential, you are so talented in so many different ways. you are a beautiful and wonderful person inside and out, and i've always wanted that to shine so everyone else could see what i see. well, that's all i can say for now but i'm here for you, even if you can't see me, or hear me, or touch me, i'm always here, and you're always with me. you've always held a special place in my heart, and that place has stayed reserved for you since we first met.

love,
allison christine barnhill

p.s. the teddy bear with the smiley face is from me, so were the flowers and the card. there will be more little presents to come, don't worry. by the time you're out of the hospital you'll have all sorts of sob letters and teddy bears from me. i know you're ecstatic